All I Ever Need

Ushering in 2006 In The Most Rocking Way Ever...


All I Ever Need
Words and music by Jason Teoh©2005

I lay my life before You, Lord
Take all my hurts, my pain, my past O God
How could You love one such as me?
I stand in awe of Your infinite mercy

Chorus:
Everything I am
Every breath that I breathe
Comes from You, my Jesus
You are my world
With all of my heart
From the depths of my soul I'll sing
Make me Yours, my Jesus
You are everything I need
In this life

Help me to see the road You've shown
Oh, hold my hand and walk with me, forever
How could I be so blind to You
You've always been right there beside me

Tag:
You are all I ever need
In this life

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God, I dedicate the first post of the year 2006 to You. I had an awesome weekend, but I will tell the world of You first.

Help me to understand the great and awesome plans that You have in store for me. Help me to draw my dignity, my confidence, my strength, my hopes, my dreams, my source of determination, my inspiration, my love, my life from You.

God there is so much brokeness in me. I cannot handle on my own, and I cannot heal on my own. Please help me to be tenacious when I cling on to You for dear life.

Father, I hurt myself too many times and I broke Your heart and the hearts of others. Love hurts a lot...

I smile and yet there is grief...i laugh and yet i weep in the quiet of my room...i speak of great things...yet i am a small person...

Please help me to grow...help me to draw my strength from You. I cannot survive without You. I am confused and afraid when You are far...

I hate the things i had done, and the failures that have so haunted me...please help me to learn and not repeat them.

Help me to be a healer...help me to be an encourager...coz i know the meaning of pain...i know the meaning of a splintered heart... i know the meaning of sorrow so deep, it could drown a mountain...

Isn't that what my name means...(Hebrew or Aramic or Greek...forgot which one...)... Jason = Healer. Must I endure so much to live up to my name's sake??
*updated*
JASON m English, Greek Mythology (Latinized), BiblicalFrom the Greek name Ιασων (Iason), which was derived from Greek ιασθαι (iasthai) "to heal"...(from http://www.behindthename.com/nmc/bibl.php)

Jason, he that cures (from http://www.ccel.org/bible_names/bible_names.html#J)


Help me to follow hard, hard, hard after You...

You are my Shepherd, my Healer, my Strong Tower, my Refuge, my High Rock, my Redeemer, my Saviour, my Inheritance, my All in All...

jason...

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Excerpts of conversations with my best friend
(USED WITH PERMISSION)

Neo Wee Liem : hope u had a great teim in cyber
Neo Wee Liem: glad to ahev u around
Neo Wee Liem : with it wasnt so hectic
jason teoh: thanks for havin me in cyber

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Neo Wee Liem: wierd
Neo Wee Liem: two friends
Neo Wee Liem : with almost similar probs
Neo Wee Liem :in almost similar sitautions
Neo Wee Liem :celebrating new year
Neo Wee Liem : trying to be cool
Neo Wee Liem : when inside all liek crap
jason teoh: feel like ..
.jason teoh: crying
jason teoh: but i am too tired

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jason teoh: i left cyber happy
jason teoh: coz i met new found friends
jason teoh: like mel, auds and celine
jason teoh: u know wat
jason teoh: haha
jason teoh: somehow. somethinhg slowly inside of me is growing
Neo Wee Liem: for?
jason teoh: not for la
Neo Wee Liem: ROTFL
jason teoh: someting like
jason teoh: God, i surrender
jason teoh: God i am tired of this
jason teoh: God, if it;s not Your will, i surrender
jason teoh: God, take me to minister to broken people, to street kids, to the lost
jason teoh: i dun need this *issue mentioned* thing now
jason teoh: God, let me play in concerts
jason teoh: God, show me the power of Your grace n love
jason teoh: I wanna grow up into a man,,,,
Neo Wee Liem: SMILEY
Neo Wee Liem: i felt the same
Neo Wee Liem: i felt hopeless
Neo Wee Liem: and it pushed me to really surrender for real this time
Neo Wee Liem: surrender into faithful arms
jason teoh: yea,,,
jason teoh: i dun need this shit
Neo Wee Liem: and that part abot growing up into a man
Neo Wee Liem: that also
jason teoh: i dun deserve this shit
Neo Wee Liem: got me
jason teoh:*edited*
jason teoh: then i want to grow up
jason teoh: i would lile to say,,i wanna *edited*
Neo Wee Liem: vengence is the Lords
jason teoh: but i don't think that is in line with what God wants me to grow up into
jason teoh: but yealar.....regret ....*some childish pay back thingy for despising me*
jason teoh: i wanna make music for God,,,i really dun need this crap la
Neo Wee Liem: yeah
jason teoh: i wanna worship lead n touch people
jason teoh: i dun need this baggage

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Neo Wee Liem: well, write ur songs
Neo Wee Liem: i want to write
Neo Wee Liem: but i got a block*SMILEY TONGUE*
Neo Wee Liem: halfway write...cant finish
Neo Wee Liem: then i feel so disappointed
Neo Wee Liem: then i listen
Neo Wee Liem: sounds crappy
Neo Wee Liem: so....do other stuff
jason teoh: haha
jason teoh: yea
jason teoh: that;s something i love
jason teoh: in fact i am leadin worship tomorow with one of my songsj
ason teoh: and i played that song many times
jason teoh: and i have seen it minister to people
Neo Wee Liem: which song?
jason teoh: it;s on my blog now

****sleep****

So i have a good memory...kill me then...
is it a bane or a boon to me?
I remember too much...the good things, the heart wrenching moments...
what u wore two, three years ago, the look on your face, the words that you said...

scarce conversations...

was i too ghastly, too uncouth, too unlovely, too unsightly, too......

*crushed*

I had an awesome weekend with some close friends in cyber to celebrate the new year. I went there emotionally exhausted and spiritually a bit down...but left on a high... I really enjoyed the company of some. Thanks for making my first few days of 2006 meaningful.

thank you cyberians for being kind to this melakan. (too many to mention...Kae Ee, Leona, Rachel Ann T, Alvin, Jason Ding, Michelle Ding, Celine, Dan Wong aka DAWG, Chee Yong, Nicky, Chern Liang n many more i have failed to mention here...never tot i would miss cyber...alwiz stood in contention with its mention...)...

thank you Joash, Sam Yau, Soly, Lionel, Seong, Stefanie, Wayne, Grace Goh, Ai, Amy, Becky, Styne, Louis my CG leader, all my bubbly juniors (and so many more i juzt can't list them) and all the people who have never judged me but stood with me....and in one way or another encouraged me...every small talk with you all goes a long way for me...

Thank you wee liem for your life to me...sorry for all the crap i gave you, my tempers and all...LOL

Auds, i think God has dozens and dozens of those tear stained bottles with my name on it...mayb beside yours in His cupboard...

thank you mel...for being so down to earth and honest...I cherish those talks....you're my daily dose of chocs too...*sighs*

thank you PG 165 ( Vijay, Justin, Zhen Xin, Deric) for always standing beside me, for loving me and shouting at me all the time that i am never alone...and believing in me and in our dream...for always having confidence in this lousy guitarist...

More than bandmates, you are my brothers...who have stuck up with all my crazy antics, my lameness, my ups, my downs, my mood swings, my tempers...you all are my pillars of strength...

I don't think I would have survived without you all...you colour my world...