I haven’t had the time to update. It’s been almost three weeks since I left off, sad huh. Well, it’s been a rather stressful period for me personally. It’s one of those trying periods that God has been putting me through…just couldn’t find the time or mood to sit down and journal here…how my week went :
Monday:
CF music practice
Prepare slide presentation for EMI assignment
Tues:
CF(but go back early)
Con’t doing FYP interim report that needs to be passed up by the end of the week
Wed:
Passed up VLSI assignment, that i know nuts about it if not for my friends.
MMU Theater Class (kokurikulum).
FYP interim report goes on.
Thurs:
Presentation for EMI assignment which i presented.
Sleep late again preparing interim report of 18 pages…wee hours of the morning.
Fri:
Wake up, to the PC again, finally print out the report and rush to campus around 4pm.
Sat:
church music practice
MMU Theater class
Sunday:
church
MMU Theater class rehearsal
Prepare for FYP slides(suppose to pass up last Friday, so I’m seriously late)
Monday:
Touch up on slides, send to supervisor for commenting(which he din reply)
Had Theater presentation…finally. Touch up slides that I’m gonna present the next day.
Tues:
Woke up early enough to be able to rehearse in front of the mirror…rushed just in the nick of time for my FYP presentation.
And was doing a lot of this with a load of emotional baggage on my back. I know I just sat in my room on Sunday, just sat there and asked God for some strength...actually did my devotion, something that i had been struggling to do on a more consistent basis.
Sometimes, we are so busy, we jusy leave God outside...when actually that's the time we need His strength the most. I know i was filled with an unspecified amount of peace and strength as I took on the theater and FYP presentations.
I have been slowly recovering from the stress of all those assignments. When i look aroud,
i see so many emo people...so much doubt, so much chaos, so much brokeness, so much strife, and that's the real world.
But i know I don't want to get swallowed up. I want to cling on to my faith...gonna start working so soon...i want my faith to be deeper than it is now...I find that out of the broken and lonely paths that i now so often thread, i find restoration and renewal like oasis and springs of water as i continue.
I will be at my church camp this weekend. I really hope to bring home something with me...in times like this, i need to dive deeper. I feel like a can of worms at times coz i know there's so much thrash in me that needs to be dealt with...and guess what? this can of worms plays guitar and leads worship...arghh...GOD...i just feel so inadequate...after all the things i have done...
His grace, His grace is sufficient for me.
But somethings can't be dealt with in a day or two, it's a long suffering process..it's when we are broken and contrite in heart, thats something that God doesn't despise...
In times like this, I have always found refuge and solitude in the songs...songs like from the most recent Planet Shakers studio album:
Always and Forever. It helps me to continue dreaming and hoping in the realness of God's plan for my life. I have been challenged and ministered by the songs, hope you are too.
p/s...NOC 3: A Time to Love VCD is for sale in MMU CF, get a copy to get a feel of what's in store for NOC 4...mastered and edited profesionally...awesome editing...contact Mark Choo for further details: 0124622440
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