sick and tired of this crap

I just finished by exam...was the last paper.
but somehow i just don't feel happy...

I feel it's not fair that sometimes you study more than a person, you study all the freaking derivations and notes and then on that day, they ask you some small part that you overlooked...and you can't do it...feels so stupid right?

feel like shit...

some fellas play, and then just so happen to read a page or two that comes out in the exam...and they can do it.
how come i don't get this kind of luck?

how come some people got everything? They have a good happy family, they have very stable financial background, they have friends who look up to them and worship the very ground they walk, they are popular, they are the MR nice guys of their time,...oh, and they are good in grades too..and even if they are not, they probably have some connections to help them out in their work when they grad...probably their parents are some sort of leaders in church...and high earning ones too..

what the hell man...seems like God has everything for these kind of people..and the average wanna be like me juz has to slog it out and make sure i don't fall and stumble coz life for me is not on the silver spoon...stupid shit..

some people...a trip to NZ...rm 4K...no problem....bah...

i feel like i am in some kind of crapporama....

oh yeah, i'm goin to IF camp...didn't i tell you that last year's IF camp was the worst,,WORST camp in my entire life,,,i don't want to go this year,,,but i just kinda signed up for it...hope it doesn't suck too..