Mercy...

Throughout the day I was thinking of ways i could write this post.

Would this be a milestone in my life...

I've done this plenty of times, breezed through it in fact. Youth meetings, CFs, mission trips, concert halls. I could put on a facade, and nobody would know.

Yet much soul searching preceded the jump. This was home...I could fool no one.
I finally graced the stage i was so afraid off, citing inadequacy with coping with the responsibility.

Yet in my insecurity, I found myself staring at grace. Down on my knees, in the solitude of my room.

Found myself admiting years of failure to Him...hoping for mercy.

And i found mercy...

Mercy I couldn't believe, or accept.

yet Mercy presented itself to me...telling me, whispering "It's ok...."



and I sang with mercy. Heart in awe of Him, misty eyes with unspeakable joy.
Guitar slung across...hands lifted...the music thundered under my guidance...

You are Magnificent, Eternally
Wonderful, Glorious
Jesus,
No One ever will compare
To You Jesus

freedom beckons...the floodgates of joy released.