Isolated,,,and secluded...

It's one of those periods that i am going through that i just induces silence...not much of a mind to blog this past few weeks...
One of the reasons is because i have not been online for much of the time.

I just finished a couple of papers in the past two weeks. Somewhere between then, all engineering students were required to see their academic advisor...as in it's compulsory. I had always shyed away from my not so spectacular results...sometimes even refusing to coming to terms with it... but this time i had no choice because the advisor wants to know our results.

Coincidentally, the results just came in the mail on the day i wanted to see him. I think it got me thinking...how messed up i am in this area... i kinda wished i had felt this earlier..as in last year or somethin like that..so that at least i could have worked doubly harder...in fact last academic year was the worst year for me...mark that down...GAmma.....HoRrible...

So the past few days...I have just been secluding myself...isolating myself in a way...feeling depressed. It didn't help when my friends were talking about their CGPA at NOC 3 music prac and in other meetings. It's that feeling of failure...it scares me...
I kinda wake up in the morning...don't really like what i see in the mirror...and the day just carries on like that...so i have been keeping to myself.
Go to church,,,and leave as early as possible...avoiding contact with anybody.
Have also been feeling far away and wayward from GOD...it really doesn't make a good combination...

Further more...i am experiencing a time where i am spending more than i am depositing...it has been pretty depressing..sigh...repaired my car, my PC, went to Cyberjaya...petrol...all the money sapping stuff...sigh..have been wanting to buy myself a combo drive...sigh

On the other side of things...PG 165 are playing for this years NOC 3: A Time To Love. It doesn't look easy as last year's NOC band had already set the standard of some clean and good playing...sigh..NOC 3 has been picking up in pace..and enthusiasm...

Besides, we have also been plannin other playing oppurtunities after this NOC assignment. Praying...hoping...asking...exciting...

Please keep me in prayer when you see me...coz i am going through some kinda anxious turmoil about the future and the responsibilities that rest on me..